5.24PM

FUCKEN WINTER.............................................

THURSDAY ALL OVER AGAIN

rain RAIN rain...........MY THEROPIST SAYS I NEED TO CONTROL MY INNER CIRCLE,BEFORE I COULD TACKLE WHATS OUTSIDE.....HE LIKES TO DRAW STUFF ON THE BOARD,AND THEN ERASE IT,WISH I COULD DO THE SAME FOR THE SERIAL EVENTS IN MY LIFE.....I TOLD HIM I WAS TIRED OF HEARIN MYSELF BLAH BLAH BLAH TO HIM,BUT HE NODDED IN A KINNA SYMPATHETIC NOWHERE NESS,SO I FIGURED HEY FUCK IT,AT LEAST HES ENTERTAINED....THEN SOMETIMES I THINK ,IMAGINE IF HIS SON MET MY DAUGHER AND STARTIN DATING,WOW,WHERE WOULD THE PRIVACY PRIVILAGE THING GO?I MEAN HES HUMAN FROM WHAT I GATHER,SO HOW MUCH AND HOW LITTLE COULD HE TOSS ASIDE?IM JUST TOO STUPID TO BE PRACTICAL ,AND TOO GENIOUS TO LET IT ALL FLOW......BUT I ADMIT IM REALLY REALLY REALLY STARTING TO FEEL ,ALONE HERE............AND IM NOT TAKIN THEIR MEDICATION,EVEN IF I DONT KNOW WHY?FREE DRUGS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE I GUESS?WELL ENUFF RAMBLIN FOR NOW.....

MIDDLE-------class

Just when i thought,being a MIDDLE age FAG was torture enuff,i was again reminded, i was also MIDDLE class,not quite in the thick of things,STILL not thin enuff to be complaining,am i supposed to be HAPPY?or standing at the corner of Spadina and whats the name of the corner again? with a fucken smelly baseball cap and a merciful amount of change jingeling,T.V. is alright cause its too surreal to be real,BUT its them damn commercials that make me relate,MASTERBATE........ they touch me like a morning at ZELLERS 75% off tuesdays,AND that fucken cunt cashier seems to be living, just to make my life MISERABLE....MIDDLE---class......................................

THE SPACE

HMMM SEEMS LIKE OUR BODY IS JUST A VICTIM TO THE SPACE OUR THOUGHTS THROW US IN....IF IT FEELS COMFORTABLE,THEN JUST LIKE A CHEAP HOOKER I RUB MYSELF AGAINST IT ALL........I KEEP A STRAIGHT FACE CAUSE IT CARRIES LESS CONSEQUENCES,MUST OF SPELLED THAT WRONG.......I OVER FLOW WITH ADDICTIONS SPOILED ONLY BY THE TOLERANCE,THAT WEAKENS ME,I TOLD U I WOULD DRIVE U MAD IF YA HAPPENED TO STUMBLE UPON THIS BLOG......BUT AM I AGAIN GIVIN TOOOOO MUCH CREDIT TO BOREDOM AND EMPTY SPACE?GRRRRRRRRRRRRR--- DO U BELIEVE I STILL HAVENT FOUND WHERE ALL THIS STUFF IS, THAT IM WRITING...I CANT EVEN REMEMBER MY BLOG NAME.FUCK...........CATCH U LATER IM GONNA GO WAISTE MORE TIME LOOKIN FOR IT.....CIAO

ANOTHER DAY

WELL I GUESS I SHOULD KEEP THIS IN CAPITALS, CAUSE BESIDES TO ME- IT HAS MEANING,TODAY I CAME TO FIND HOW WEAK YET SAVAGE PEOPLE CAN BE....AND HOW CHEAP BEER TRANSFORM REAL TO SUR-REAL........THURSDAY MID AFTERNOON AND MY BRAIN FEELS LIKE ITS 4 AM AND I WISH I WAS IN A CLUB ON THOSE PILLS YOUNGSTERS TAKE TO KEEP ON KEEPIN ON......BUT NOPE IM STILL ME,AND I HAVENT STOP CHAIN SMOKIN,I FEEL DIRTY AND ADDICTED.........AND MY KIDS----- GIRLS NON THE LESS,KEEP ME ENTERTAINED........I WISH I HAD CONTROL AS I DO OVER MEN AS I WISH THEY DID.......DICK2DICK OPPOSED TO .............ANY FUCKEN HOOT IM NOT EVEN SURE IM DOIN ANYTHING RIGHT ON THIS BLOG,WHATS THAT AD LET YOUR FINGER DO THE WALKIN?..........................SIGN OFF

TIME TO KILL

4.53am and wide awake.......so i decided to create a blog,what ever that will give or take from me i suppose is to come,so i will keep it short and im sure in time i will drive not only myself but who ever decides to read what i say,oh im not great on periods and stuff like that so it may seem that i ramble but my thoughts do have beginings and endins and even the rare pause....4.55am signin off...